So it has been a month since I was robbed at gunpoint in Rio and I’m pissed. I haven’t been the same since and I’m really not happy about it. I have been sad, depressed, grateful, angry, loved, and any other emotion you can think of. But today I am angry. Here is why:
I’m angry at the little bastard who put the gun in my face. How dare he.
I’m angry that some people in my life can’t see how broken I am right now.
I’m angry that because I am normally a strong woman some feel that I need to “get over it” and move on. Please tell me how I do that.
I’m angry that I am so angry.
I’m angry that panic attacks have become part of my life when before they were only something I had read about.
I’m angry that I get scared in unexpected situations and I have to talk myself down.
I’m angry that I have had to cut some people out of my life because they weren’t able to catch me when I asked for help as I felt myself falling.
I am very rarely vulnerable. I don’t normally write about emotions or how things make me feel but right now this is the only outlet I have to share what is going on with me.
I have been to therapy, that helped. And this is cathartic as well and I thank you for reading. I know that I will eventually be ok. I know that one day I will look back on this time and be grateful I got through it but right now I am not ok.
Have you ever been the victim of trauma? How did you deal with it?
Dear Travel Guru-
I am so sorry you experienced such a trauma especially doing something you love. I’ve never experienced something like that but can only imagine how you must have felt and still feel. Like many traumatic experiences, I am sure there will be many more stages you will go through so you’re being angry right now is OK..you have every right to be angry with that person and angry that we live in a world where you cannot let your guard down to enjoy the beautiful things around you. As you go through your healing process, know that you are loved, admired, prayed for, and not forgotten. Right now you are wounded, but in YOUR time, you will get better.
I always enjoy your blogs and stories about travel. That you educate us with the good, bad, and scary.
He may have robbed you of your physical things and perhaps a little mentally but I hope you don’t allow him to steal your joy for travel and sharing it with the world!
(HUG) You’re a brave, strong girl. Yes, I’ve dealt with trauma and it is something that stays with you forever even if the sting dulls with time. You deal with it how you deal with it and ignore anyone who tells you how you “should” be feeling/coping. F em. *muah*
Faida, I am so very sorry that this has happened to you. I truly sympathize with what you’re going through. I’m glad that you sought therapy, so many don’t. I have never been through anything close to this but I can tell you this, you feel whatever you feel, your feelings are valid and are to be respected. If anyone doesn’t understand that, then yes, remove them from your life. Take care of yourself in your own way and in your own time.
Dear Travel Guru-
I am so sorry you experienced such a trauma especially doing something you love. I’ve never experienced something like that but can only imagine how you must have felt and still feel. Like many traumatic experiences, I am sure there will be many more stages you will go through so you’re being angry right now is OK..you have every right to be angry with that person and angry that we live in a world where you cannot let your guard down to enjoy the beautiful things around you. As you go through your healing process, know that you are loved, admired, prayed for, and not forgotten. Right now you are wounded, but in YOUR time, you will get better.
I always enjoy your blogs and stories about travel. That you educate us with the good, bad, and scary.
He may have robbed you of your physical things and perhaps a little mentally but I hope you don’t allow him to steal your joy for travel and sharing it with the world!
He has stolen my joy for the moment but I’ll get it back eventually. Thank you for all that you said, it’s comforting.
(HUG) You’re a brave, strong girl. Yes, I’ve dealt with trauma and it is something that stays with you forever even if the sting dulls with time. You deal with it how you deal with it and ignore anyone who tells you how you “should” be feeling/coping. F em. *muah*
Thanks so much, I truly appreciate this. Some people just don’t get it and it really frustrates me but oh well. Besos to you as well.
Faida, I am so very sorry that this has happened to you. I truly sympathize with what you’re going through. I’m glad that you sought therapy, so many don’t. I have never been through anything close to this but I can tell you this, you feel whatever you feel, your feelings are valid and are to be respected. If anyone doesn’t understand that, then yes, remove them from your life. Take care of yourself in your own way and in your own time.
Thanks darlin! I appreciate it.